i spoke awhile ago in this post about the Gawler retreat in Australia. my friend Rel, who was diagnosed with stage IV (terminal) colon cancer went there twice for retreats and always spoke so highly of it. she passed away in march. she was such ball of light, always happy, always caring. just a beautiful person inside and out. a few weeks before she passed, she urged me to go to one of these retreats. she even began fundraising for me, my friend who was dying of cancer. she said she wanted to know that i was going to be alright. every time i think of that it brings tears to my eyes. i doubt i am even getting across a fraction of who she was and how much her life and that one simple gesture impacted me. we have spent the year honoring her and doing what we can to carry on the things that were important to her. my friend T who was very close with Rel decided to pick up where she left off with the fundraising to get me to Gawler. i have no words for this, just endless gratitude and love for my friends.